Saturday, February 25, 2012

My New Chapter

A new chapter in life is always a hard to pill swallow. I need to find my new footing in my life. I need stability and people who are loyal.
Maybe just maybe some of my friendships are really over. It is hard to comprehend it, and it hurts so bad it hurts to breathe. People just move on, leave, replace, & without even looking back. What do I do to people to have them love me for years then wake up and act as though I don't exist? My friends are gone. Gone. Bye. See ya. Peace out don't call no more. People lie... Really! "I'll always be there for you." "I got you..." yea right!
I understand that I almost set a certain friend up to fail by having high expectations, but to leave me high and dry is just poor friendship.
I am sorry to those who need apologies. I am thankful for all you have done.
I am ready to do whatever it is God has planned for me. If you are part of his plan I believe you will seek me out. A phone does work both ways and I have tried many times.
I wish all of you peace and happiness. You are good people, I believe. Flawed, but who isn't. I have been hurt so bad in the past and I'm tired of it. Psalm 55:12-14 “If an enemy were insulting me, I could endure it;
if a foe were raising himself against me, I could hide from him. But it is you, a man like myself, my companion, my close friend, with whom I once enjoyed sweet fellowship as we walked with the throng at the house of God.” (NIV)